It’s weird how something’s will always be yours. You are my past, a chapter now closed. And even though I am not yours any longer and you are not mine, the songs we loved still exist. they still play and they still remind me of you. The everyday to day things we made special can never be unmarked, because they never leave, the songs play with or without you .
My best friend used to say “always keep the faith.” Whenever one of us or both of us were in a bad situation we’d always remind each other of this. This past few weeks I’ve been in all sorts of bad situations: accident, illness,etc. Actually, this past year has been really rough mentally, physically, emotionally and sometimes I just want to quit again and leave and move to another place and start again with a clean slate. I’m so exhausted and I’m sick of being sick. It feels as though I’m in the hospital every few months and it scares me because every time I get sick something major happens. So, I remind myself that when bad days come, they don’t last forever and I just have to wait it out until better days are here again; and giving up isn’t always the answer and it doesn’t always feel good.